School is normal creatures. My test was da shit, most probably many of my mates failed. So tomorrow is friday another test, completely at home. I've finally realized starting now I have to go home alone. Man, listening to music which I have to entertain. Anyway, I can't show to him like this. I going to change my way to get home so that I don't want you too see me again. I really miss you!! Well, I need to concentrate another 3chapter to be revised before exam.

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. I want my smile back.

I think...it about the time for me to stop what I'm doing now. I need to wake up seen no one around me. I don't feel comfortable right now without you. I feel so empty without you. Nobody want to know what happens what I am doing. I need someone to talk with me. Everytime I always talk to a person that he always entertain me. But now, no longer. And I don't know how much I can handle this. Only one day I can't face it. What if I can't face it another day? There is no other words I can say that should describe how i feeling right now. And I try, to move on without you. Seriously I need time to slowly move on.

It's like I forcing myself. I might get lost in myself if I always thinking about that. Because I know I always like that. I can't lie to my feelings right now. I love you. What if you still don't bother about me? I am stuck right now waiting for you for another life. I know you want what you really want, you make a decision for us to be friends. I can't treat you as friend. I don't know why. I don't want my feeling to be change. I confused I think. I honestly shit need someone to save me this time.

I think so much about you. First I never feel like this before. Secondly, being single such a outward. Thirdly I blank. This is no a desperate over something but my feelings. Imagine I can't smile like the previous time.