I was thinking today. I stuck now , stuck yesterday, today and I don't know when I will stop. I cry yesterday night while listening to music makes me hurt. Anyone can make you smile or cry, but it takes someone special to make you smile when you already have tears in your eyes. I miss someone from my past already. I miss how his lips tasted. I try my finding ways to entertain myself though. I miss everything about him so much and what will happen the following weeks I kept thinking of myself whenever heart hurts so deep. I love you badly. Why I can't be myself now? I don't know if I handle being the way that I am now. I am pulling myself for me to forget it soon as possible. And then soon or later, would be left of me is nothing much left. There is no other word I can say that should describe how I have been feeling. I'm so sorry for being emotional. I can't be like this all this time, i sound so selfish and now I'm trying. Even my mum know I everytime writes about you in my diary. Should I tell my mum I'm not in the relationship with you now.