to : him

it breaks my heart,
i wish that i can forget it that soon, i dont want you to bother about this. I want to forget it by myself, i have to accepts this facts that come to me. I accept. Everything is my faults, every tears is a waste for me.

I dont know how much longer i can do this.
i dont know if i can just be your girlfriend, i dont know what to do.
all i can think about is fucking kissing you.
And i am, pretty sure you still dont want to see me in that way.
I am such a pathetic idiot keeps following you. I mean i love being close with you but between us, everytime we fought it's getting harder & harder. Not to say, 1 week twice a day. Butt, we overcome about this. I only want to hold hands and waste my time to be with you.